i want to be a fashion designer but i can't sew.
i want to be famous but i can't get my break.
i want to be a singer but i can't sing.
i want to be an actress but i can't act.
i want to be a model but i'm not tall or anorexic.
i want to be a star but i can't climb high enough to jump into the sky.
i want to be better but i'm stuck with what i am.
this is me: i want the world
and i promise you one day it'll be handed to me on a silver platter.


i just want to be wonderful.

poetry, art, postmodernism, boys, girls, good hair, piercings, body art, parts of the anatomy, music, alcohol, euphorias, germanic people, late nights, tarot, astrology, drive-in movies, the decay of social structure, religion as a generalization, the doors between the normal psychological structure and that of one enhanced by drug culture.

tool, the doors, queens of the stone age, tila tequila, millionaires, uffie, cream, jefferson airplane, eatdisco, dear and the headlights, yelle, menomena, 13 & god, ludacris, elliot smith, placebo, new order

fight club, garden state, igby goes down, party monster, 300, anything batman, the notebook, juno, forgetting sarah marshall, alice in wonderland, beauty and the beast, hairspray, shoot 'em up, i am legend, sin city, resident evil, silent hill

america's next top model, janice dickinson's modeling agency, a shot at love with tila tequila, my super sweet 16, degrassi, family guy

Please Don't Kill the Freshman, Echo, She's Come Undone, The Bell Jar, The Hanged Man, Necklace of Kisses, Dangerous Angels, Ecstasia, Primavera, Teach Me, Wasteland, The Inferno, Better Than Running At Night, No One Here Gets Out Alive, all of Jim Morrison's poetry, Ruby